New mum Kate Lawler admits she's in 'the darkest place'

‘I’m at breaking point!’ New mum Kate Lawler says she’s in ‘the darkest place’ and feels like she’s ‘failing’ as she hits out at trolls in emotional post

  • The Big Brother star, 40, who gave birth to daughter Noa just a month ago, took to Instagram on Tuesday to get candid about life with a newborn baby 
  • Little Noa has been taken into hospital three times in three weeks since being welcomed into the world, and Kate has documented their journey online  
  • In a heartbreaking post, Kate admitted: ‘If you must know, being a mum to a newborn is not the best thing ever right now. It’s broken me’
  • ‘I feel like I’ve been treading water since February 11th and the last two days I’ve felt like I’m at breaking point. I’m not coping well mentally and I wish I could be stronger for my daughter’ she wrote
  • Within the lengthy statement, the broadcaster explained that she’s shares the ‘highs and lows’ of her journey as a new mum ‘because that’s the truth’ 
  • While hitting back at ‘dog mum’ trolls, who came for Kate after she dedicated a Mother’s Day post to her pet pooches, the reality star urged people to ‘be kind’  

Kate Lawler has admitted that she’s in ‘the darkest place.’

The Big Brother star, 40, who gave birth to daughter Noa just a month ago, took to Instagram on Tuesday to get candid about life with a newborn baby, confessing that she feels like she’s ‘failing’ in an emotional post.

While hitting back at ‘dog mum’ trolls, who came for Kate after she shared a Mother’s Day post dedicated to her pet pooches, the reality star urged people to ‘be kind’ and thanked her fiancé Martin for being her ‘rock.’

Heartbreaking: Kate Lawler, 40, took to Instagram on Tuesday where she admitted that she’s in ‘the darkest place,’ after giving birth to daughter Noa just a month ago

On Sunday, Kate had posted a snap of her two dogs, Baxter and Shirley, and wrote: ‘It’s not my first Mother’s Day. It’s my 11th. Being a dog Mum is the best thing in the world.’ 

And on Tuesday, the Virgin Radio host revealed that she’d been subjected to trolling over her love for her pets, with some cruel trolls claiming she ‘shares praise and love for her dogs over her actual child’.

Kate shared a thread of screenshots, which detailed her experience over the past month, which went into detail about what she’s been through with daughter Noa. 

Her tiny baby has been taken into hospital three times in three weeks since she was welcomed into the world, and Kate has documented their journey.  

Candid: The Big Brother star confessed that she feels like she’s ‘failing’ as she got candid about life with a newborn baby in an emotional post

Trooper: Little Noa has been taken into hospital three times in three weeks since she was welcomed into the world, and Kate has documented their journey online

Dog mum: Trolls came for Kate after she shared a Mother’s Day post dedicated to her pet pooches, Baxter and Shirley

Alongside the new images which explain how she’s struggling to cope, Kate wrote: ‘Swipe left. It’s long but it needs to be said.

‘Thank you to everyone who has reached out and supported me recently, especially my family, friends and fiancé who has been my rock now more than ever.’ 

The reality star welcomed her first child with her fiancé and partner of seven years, Martin aka ‘Boj’, in February.    

Grateful for the support: Alongside the new images which explain how she’s struggling to cope, Kate thanked her fiancé Martin for being her ‘rock’

Calling it out: Kate began by stating that she wanted to address ‘some extremely hurtful and abusive comments’ and reiterated that she has always cheshied her two dogs

Kate began by stating that she wanted to address ‘some extremely hurtful and abusive comments’ and reiterated that she has always cheshied her two dogs.

The broadcaster then explained how she’s shares the ‘highs and lows’ of her journey as a new mum ‘because that’s the truth’.

Kate also pointed out how Instagram is simply a snapshot into people’s lives and is often not a truthful reflection of what is going on behind closed doors. 

Likening her Instagram followers to a ‘friendship group,’ the TV star reasserted that being a dog mum is ‘the best thing ever’ and confirmed that she stands by her words.

Real talk: Moving onto discussing her life as mum to a newborn baby, Kate said: ‘I’m not coping well mentally and I wish I could be stronger for my daughter’

Moving onto discussing her life as mum to a newborn baby, Kate admitted: ‘If you must know, being a mum to a newborn is not the best thing ever right now. It’s broken me.

‘I feel like I’ve been treading water since February 11th and the last two days I’ve felt like I’m at breaking point. I’m not coping well mentally and I wish I could be stronger for my daughter.

‘I’m not enjoying what I’m going through, yes I’m struggling and you’re right, I am sad behind the eyes because I’ve always taken on new challenges like a duck to water but his one in testing me and I feel like I’m failing.’

Kate admitted that she’s not scared to be honest about her mental health battle and explained that she’s had to cope with 14 of Noa’s first 33 days in the world being spent in hospital, and stated that her little girl is still barely sleeping.

Lashing out at trolls, the reality star fumed: ‘How dare you say I put my dogs before my child’ before detailing her feelings of guilt over being unable to walk them as much now that Noa is her priority. 

Priorities: Explaining that she hasn’t shared much of the intimate side of her journey on Instagram because she’s been focusing on her daughter and making sure her needs of met

Kate continued: ‘But I love my child and for nearly five weeks, I’ve devoted myself to keeping her alive. I breastfeed day and night, I comfort, hold, kiss and cuddle her, bath and dress he, I sing and play to her.’

Explaining that she hasn’t shared much of this side of her journey on Instagram because she’s been focusing on her daughter and making sure her needs of met. 

Kate insisted: ‘There HAVE been moments of joy, but hand on heart, I’m just exhausted, frustrated and the newborn days are not what I thought they’d be.

‘If that upsets or angers you then it’s your problem. I’m in the darkest place I’ve ever been in, trying to stay positive but I’m not the earth mother you want me to be, so accept it and stop with the hurtful comments.’ 

Concluding her lengthy post, the new mum also revealed that she ‘held back’ from posting photos of herself an Noa on Mother’s, Day because she was being mindful of women who’ve lost children and/or who have fertility struggles. 

Candid: Kate confessed that she’s ‘just exhausted’ and ‘in the darkest place’ she’s ever been in, but is ‘trying to stay positive’

Kate shared the happy news with her followers at the beginning of March, saying: ‘Today is hopefully our last day of hospital visits for Noa’s IV antibiotics.  

‘We were told initially that she’d only need to come in on Thursday we were discharged on Wednesday evening. Friday morning however, we got a call saying she was to remain on them until today.’

Kate continued: ‘We were here five hours yesterday as she had to have further blood tests after being observed but thankfully all came back clear.  

How awful! Finishing off her Instagram upload, Kate shared screengrabs of some of the negative comments which had been made about her

Kate’s heartbreaking admission about her mental health problems came after she recently revealed her newborn daughter has been given the all-clear from doctors following a health scare and a series of hospital visits. 

The radio star took to Instagram to show her appreciation for the medical staff that helped her daughter during the time of distress. 

She wrote: ‘I’ve never been so grateful for our National Health Service as I am right now. The doctors, nurses, consultants, every member of staff at The Whittington Hospital has been incredible, attentive and kind and I can’t thank them enough.’

The baby girl, who was born in February, was recently rushed to hospital for the third time in three weeks with a temperature higher than 38C but thankfully has since made a full recovery.     

Keeping it real: Kate has regularly given fans a candid insight into motherhood

‘I’ve never been so grateful for our National Health Service as I am right now. The doctors, nurses, consultants, every member of staff at The Whittington Hospital has been incredible, attentive and kind and I can’t thank them enough.’

She added: ‘Despite these first few weeks being incredibly challenging, I count myself so lucky that Noa hasn’t been seriously poorly.  

‘She fought back at the beginning, her Paronychia healed well and whatever it is she has now she appears to be getting better.’   

Kate apologised to her fans for not being more active on social media and revealed she was trying to focus all her energy on ‘getting Noa better’.   

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