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<\/p>\nRobbie Williams has revealed that he disliked his Take That co-star Gary Barlow so much that he became ‘vengeful.’<\/p>\n
The singer, who eventually left the chart-topping band in 1995, admitted that he ‘wanted to make him pay’ as he was deeply jealous of his career and talents.<\/p>\n
Speaking on his new Netflix documentary, Robbie Williams: Raw. Honest. Real, he also apologised for his behaviour towards Barlow.<\/p>\n
Williams, 49, says: ‘I disliked Gary the most because he was the one that was supposed to have everything and the career and I wanted to make him pay. I was vengeful.’<\/p>\n
He also described Barlow as ‘cold,’ adding: ‘It seemed to be one person managing Take That and it was Gary Barlow – it was all geared around him.\u00a0<\/p>\n
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Brutal:\u00a0Robbie Williams has revealed that he disliked his Take That co-star Gary Barlow so much that he became ‘vengeful’<\/p>\n
‘And as a young person I would have been jealous of that. A lot of me resented him. I was going home from those days thinking this is weird and uncomfortable. It’s lord of the flies stuff.’<\/p>\n
Williams also apologises to Gary for famously saying that Barlow was ‘dead’ and calling him a ‘p****’ on stage. He says: ‘I’m sorry that I treated Gary like that.’<\/p>\n
The candid documentary, which will be released next Wednesday. also includes new admissions by the singer about his decline into drink and drug addiction.\u00a0<\/p>\n
He even admits that during the depths of his addictions he thought it would be better if he was dead.<\/p>\n
He says:’ I did have a sense of what I was doing to myself and I didn’t care. There was a sense it would be best if I passed away. I didn’t care and it would be alright.<\/p>\n
‘That’s where your addiction takes you, where it ends up. The natural progression of let’s see how far we can take this.<\/p>\n
‘The thing that would destroy me has also made me successful. Big, more, touch the fire, push when it says pull. All of those things have given me my career.<\/p>\n
‘But there’s also a detrimental side to it too.. For me to change I’ve got to be dying. Die or stop what you’re doing.’<\/p>\n
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Opinion:\u00a0Speaking on his new Netflix documentary, Robbie Williams: Raw. Honest. Real, he also apologised for his behaviour towards Barlow<\/p>\n
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Insight:\u00a0The candid documentary, which will be released next Wednesday. also includes new admissions by the singer about his decline into drink and drug addiction<\/p>\n
In further emotional moments in the documentary, Ayda Field, the singer’s wife, and mother to their four children, discusses the pop star’s lowest moments as a drug addict.<\/p>\n
She recalls calling him at 2am to discuss him checking into rehab. The documentary also details how attempting to cure his addiction to cocaine Williams relapsed on one occasion doing a line of the drug in the bathroom, and being discovered there in a sorry state by Ms Field.<\/p>\n
She says: ‘We just talked all night. He had just relapsed and it was my entry way into addiction.<\/p>\n
‘You wouldn’t notice his personality change but he would just throw up while watching TV. I didn’t know someone could have an addiction that would be deadly. I<\/p>\n
‘I remember that being really scary because I was liking this person a lot.’<\/p>\n
Looking back at previous less successful relationships, Williams discusses his break-up from former Spice Girl Geri Halliwell, claiming he was told by a member of the paparazzi that she had been tipping them off so they could take photos as the pair went on holidays together.<\/p>\n
‘It ruined in some way the memory of such a joyous part in my life,’ he says of the moment he was told this.\u00a0<\/p>\n
But Williams added: ‘It was a very confusing relationship because she’s a girl, I’m a boy. We were very good friends trying to sort out the wreckage of the past.’<\/p>\n
The relationship started when Williams checked into Alcoholics Anonymous.\u00a0<\/p>\n
‘I just found her company very very easy,’ he says. ‘ There was a silliness we got on really well. It was fun. We were a little gang that was sharing a magical moment in a magical place.’<\/p>\n